Why am I here?
Why can I not sleep?
I sit and stare at nothing,
For nothing is here.
No one to talk to
at this late hour.
Not that I have anything to say.
The Nothing grows inside of me.
Devouring me from within.
I no longer care,
I just sit here and stare.
No thoughts or reason,
No needs or care.
Nothing is inside of me.
Empty words upon this screen.
I could just as easy
type the ABC”s.
No one would care,
it is as if I am not here.
So who cares
No one and nothing.
This is the rambling
of a sleep deprived mind.
Yet another sleepless night. Instead of fighting for sleep I chose to spend the night hour with my Heavenly Father. I spent part of the night reading,another part praying and praising Him and another part cleaning and anointing my home. My mood today is surprisingly good considering the fact that I did not even sleep an hour this last night. This I take as a gift from God, especially since I am not a morning person to begin with add a lack of sleep my mood is not usually so joyful. I would also like to report since the other night when I wrote asking other insomniacs to join me in prayer I have had two people contact me and said they too would be praying and will pray with me during the night if we are awake together. I am glad for this because it is turning the sleepless night into a blessing. The more who join us in prayer the more people we can pray for, and together we can also praise our God and praise Jesus our Redeemer, our Healer, our Savior, our Lord. Sleepless nights are becoming less of a burden, and more joyful. I still look forward to peaceful sleep, but taking advantage of every waking moment seeking God and petitioning Him for the needs of others.
How many of you find it difficult to find sleep at the end of the day? Insomnia as it is medically labeled is something more people than we realize suffer with. After not sleeping last night and my ramblings I posted during the night hours, I have a thought I would like to share. I know that you do not know me and I do not know you, but if you are like me and are awake while the rest of the world sleeps, why don’t we start praying together. We can pray for each other. We can pray for loved ones. We can pray for our leaders and for the leaders around the world. We can pray for blessings, for peace, and for healing. We can pray together for anything and for anyone.
Let us use this time in the night to good and not complain about the lack of sleep but pray together that God’s will be done. If Christ is in you as He is in me we are not strangers but are one with God who created us. With as many of us who live with the lack of sleep come together sharing each others burdens can you imagine what God can do with our prayers? Prayer is a gift and a weapon. Let us use it for good. If you will join me in this idea please post a comment. You can leave a request for prayer and I will pray with you for that need or the person who needs prayer. What ever prayer is needed there will be no judgment only loving prayers. If you know others who have trouble sleeping ask them if they will join in prayer. Let us instead of being insomniacs become warriors in the night. I hope and pray to take back from the enemy what He has stolen from us be turned into victory for Jesus Christ. Let us take back our nights. Let us pray! Please join me in prayer.
James 5:15-17 The Prayer of Faith
…15and the prayer offered in faith will restore the one who is sick, and the Lord will raise him up, and if he has committed sins, they will be forgiven him. 16Therefore, confess your sins to one another, and pray for one another so that you may be healed. The effective prayer of a righteous man can accomplish much. 17Elijah was a man with a nature like ours, and he prayed earnestly that it would not rain, and it did not rain on the earth for three years and six months.…
Matthew 18:18-20 18“Truly I say to you, whatever you bind on earth shall have been bound in heaven; and whatever you loose on earth shall have been loosed in heaven. 19“Again I say to you, that if two of you agree on earth about anything that they may ask, it shall be done for them by My Father who is in heaven. 20“For where two or three have gathered together in My name, I am there in their midst.”
Another sleepless night. I could say I dream of sleep but to dream doesn’t one need to sleep? I lack the understanding of why my mind and body will not shut down. I have tried everything and still nothing brings the rest I can only find in sleep. I pray, I read, and I even find a mindless TV show to zone out with. Yet I have had no success.
I sometimes wonder if this is training for my time in Heaven where time has no clock or calendar. Yet here on Earth sleep is a necessity. This bodies we live in need time to rest. Yet here I sit typing away, not really saying anything.
As tired as I may be, I try to find peace in the quiet dark of night. The good thing is there are no distractions, and my thoughts can focus on Jesus and His Word. During the day there are so many things to do and so many demands, it is easy to lose that focus. So I am thankful that even though I may not be sleeping, and I may live alone and not have anyone I can call at this hour, but I am not alone Jesus is here with me. He is watching my fingers type these words. So as I ramble He is with me. Sleep or no sleep, He is with me. He is my peace.
So to you who are sleeping I pray your sleep is peaceful. For those of you who are like me I pray Jesus is your companion and you are enjoying your alone time with Him.