I am not my race and I am not my gender

With so much division and hate in this world this came to me. Some may not like what I have written but here it is.

I am a Christian

I was born a baby girl and grew into a woman. I have lived through many things. I have had good day and many bad days. I was molested and abused. Was this because I was born a girl or that I am half Japanese or an eighth Blackfoot or the rest of the mix German, Irish, and English. I do not think any of that was a contributor to the wrongs I have lived through. Girls are not the only ones who have been molested. Many boys have been molested. So sex does not determine who the victim will be. I have heard that these pedophiles are all homosexual. I have known many homosexuals in my life and not one of them ever hurt a child. The one who molested me was a male.  Even the men who have had boys for their victims are not doing so because they might be gay, it is because they are monsters. They prey on the weak, ones who they can control, manipulate and intimidate. These victims are not chosen because of their race or religion but because like a mouse is prey for a cat that is what I can compare a child who has been a victim to this terrible deed. (As I am writing this I am doing my best not to use profanity not because it is not a profane act but because I do not want to give it power over me anymore.)

Was I molested because of what I wore? I remember when I was growing up and this was back in the 70’s there was a rape case where the rapist was not found guilty because the woman was wearing jeans. I have tried to find this case but the only one I could find is a case in Italy that happened in 1999. Back to what  a victim is wearing. I could walk down the street naked and that does not give anyone permission to rape or molest me. It does not matter what color my skin is or what your skin is if you have been raped or molested it is not because of this. Your attacker is the one who is wrong.

Wrong doings have been happening since Adam and Eve were kicked out of Eden because they sinned. Cain killed Abel and many other murders and crimes have been committed. Hebrews were slaves in Egypt. Slavery has not been kept to one race. One person or group has always sought power and dominion over another person. People’s lands have been stolen. People have been sold by their own people and this has happened in every country. Men and women have been at war with each other for what seems like forever. God has used women throughout the Bible. It was through Sarah that Abraham would be given the son God had promised. Deborah was not only a woman and a wife but a Judge over Israel. She did not hesitate to go out in battle, and she fought on the front lines. Esther an orphan marries the king and becomes a queen who saves her people. Mary gives birth to Jesus and is there when He is crucified. Anna was a prophetess. The church is called His bride. Women have value but too many have looked for recognition from the world. Demanding their rights they have no problem ending the life of unborn children, stating, ‘My body, my choice.’

I used to read a series of books by Laurel K. Hamilton in which her main character Anita Blake say, ‘Humans are the worst monsters.’ As I look around this world I could easily agree with her. We can blame the devil all we want but it is our choices and our actions. Yes you have suffered at another’s hands, but does that give you a right to hurt another. We spread hate and prejudice like butter on toast. We demand our rights while trampling all over another’s.

One of the best things I have found in Christ is that God does not see me in a limited view determined by man (People, male or female.) He does not limit me to my sex or to my race (as mixed as that is). He sees His child who He loves. A child He sent His Son to die for. A child He adopted into His family because I am special to Him. I am His, I am a Christian. No matter what was done to me or what I have done I am forgiven and I am loved. This is also you, if you have received Jesus as your Lord and Savior.